Tuesday, January 13, 2026

#63: The Helicopter Overhead

 Brief summary: This week’s newsletter recounts a freezing Saturday night at Strawberry Fields that transformed into a spontaneous, international prayer circle for peace. Silhouetted against the jagged backdrop of The Dakota, strangers from Greece, Mexico, and Tibet stepped out of the shadows to form a circle around the Imagine mosaic, breathing as one in a rare moment of total unity. It was a poignant contrast: while the literal "war machine" rumbled in the headlines and the Maduro helicopter hummed overhead, we stood below in the cold, proving that the heart’s capacity to imagine peace is as vital now as it was when John first wrote the song.


Here's the whole story.


Gavin and I, playing at Strawberry Fields, had a very touching moment Saturday night. We were facing the 72nd entrance. We had our lights on us (amber because the white ones blind Gavin) plus one little spotlight casting a gentle white oval over the IMAGINE mosaic.


This means the people were dark figures, silhouettes against the backdrop of the huge triangle gables on The Dakota. This was my first night wearing the electric socks my brother David bought me. 


At one point, a very garrulous man jumped onto the bench, near me on the other side of the arm rest.  I waved him over. His mouth was open in a wide smile, like, "Really?? I can sit next to you??" (He didn't say that out loud).


He shouted out, "I'm Marco!" He was probably late-30s, athletic, bald.


I asked him, "Where are you from?"


I'm from Greece!" The small group of four that were over on the left bench all cheered. In fact, that group had been singing along on everything.


For a while, I wasn't sure if anyone was actually listening. There was a crowd of about 10 facing us, another group the same size that were on the right side. I couldn't see any faces. I couldn't distinguish people except for this one woman dressed in bright white fur from head to toe, big Russian looking white furry hat.


Marco smiled and I held the mic for him to sing "Eight Days A Week," which he couldn't sing and didn't know the words and he proudly sang out anyway, with me prompting him. This sometimes drives Gavin nuts because he's trying so hard to maintain the integrity of the song. I'm more like the clown in the monkey suit trying to draw everyone in. That's why I love our dynamic as a duo.


His friends were taking video and eventually others came. An older man with a weathered face. From Mexico. He wasn't there to sing, just pose for a picture. Came right up and asked. When I held the mic to his shoe leather face, he grinned bashfully and said, "I don't..." And then he started singing. Sounded like a frog, but he had a twinkle in his eye that lit up like the cloudless sky above us.


At one point, it's something I feel in my body, the benches on both sides facing us had filled up. No one was standing at the mosaic, but I took a chance. I said to Gavin, "It's time."


"Did you come for the full Imagine Experience?" I prodded them. "Then join me here around the circle."


This is the tricky moment.


As one, as if they had all come together, without hesitation, they rose from the benches and formed a circle. 


Now usually, people are shy. Or they don’t want to stand up, afraid they might lose their place on the bench. But these came immediately and eagerly. 


I began by telling them my Imagine Piano story, how it was under a tree outside just like this. I told them to imagine the piano here, John sitting there leading us. I told them, “His spirit is here now.”


Then I pointed at them one by one – there were twenty or thirty people – and said, “He’s in your heart. So he’s here.”


I led them in the song and then asked where they were from. Mexico, Hungary, Poland, Peru, Tibet! I said you’re my first person from Tibet! Greece. The lady in white. 


I told them the story of the Palestinian and the Israeli singing together here. 


There was something going on this night. Even on good nights, we have people who were dragged there or who weren’t into the group thing. But everyone was there. We were breathing as one.


I said, “Let’s memorize this moment. The freezing cold air. The lights in the park. The jagged skyline of The Dakota. The clear skies. 


Just that moment, a helicopter flew over. Way high up but we could hear it and see its lights in the distant sky.

“And that helicopter overhead.”


Everyone laughed. Just before that, fire engine horns had blared into our space. Ah, New York.


I mentioned how in an interview, John had said over and over that you have to think peace and imagine peace before you can have peace. I babbled on, “It’s hard to imagine since we just invaded Venezuela this morning. And there’s Ukraine…” I didn’t have words. I don’t like being political. But it was in the headlines. How do I not mention it?


Then most people began to leave. We sang another couple of songs and said goodnight. The last song was, “Don’t Let Me Down.”


As we were breaking down our equipment, the lady in white and a friend of hers approached. Both were stylish and beautiful, warm and gracious. 


She said, “We needed this.” Her friend jumped in, “We were just talking about Venezuela and wondering what can any of us do? We were just talking about that! And then we came here.”


When I got home, the first thing I saw on the TV was images of Maduro landing in New York via helicopter.


While the war machine was flying overhead, we were down below in a kind of prayer circle singing about peace.


Peace to us all, Steve


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#62: The Reviews are in!

 The best news happened on Tuesday. We got reviewed. One mentioned us on his Best of the Year roundup. Or as my fake press agent, whose name I keep changing, put it:


"The critics have confirmed that the December 9th concert was something special, with Peter Filichia declaring the ballad 'My New York Life' to be the 'song of the year for this type of venue' and noting that the applause sounded like it came from a crowd far larger than the room could hold. Mark Dundas Wood of BistroAwards agreed, headlining his review 'The Miracle of (More) Life' and praising the show’s unique 'jam session' intimacy, while identifying the surprise introduction of Dr. Bruce Dorsey as the 'evening’s most thrilling moment'."

Peter Filichia mentioned us on his Best of the Year podcast. Best of the year! 

If you're not in the theater, Peter is a noted theater historian and lover, author, and a legendarily opinionated, and much respected voice here in New York City. If he hates something, he will tell you. And if he loves something, he will fight for it. His only criticism, he told me that night, was that I didn't mention Potsie.

Normally, one-night shows by obscure songwriters on a cold Tuesday at 9 PM in a 60 seat theater don't get much attention. I didn't even know they would be there.

So, happy new year!

I was thinking back thirty years ago when I suddenly remembered a woman named Leslie. Something about her office at AIDS Project LA. What was I doing there?

Searching my diary archive, I discovered that on June 1996 I was literally walking the halls of APLA looking for someone who would listen to my songs. It was after the first reading at the Hollywood Roosevelt and before the three week workshop in July at the Zephyr. We had no idea what we were gonna do with this show and these songs.

I remembered being there. But not that I was a man possessed. Am I still a man possessed? Gavin says I'm the most intense person he's met. And he's from South Africa!

So, there was desperate me walking the halls when I came upon an offiice with a big window. A woman with shocking red hair sitting at a desk. Across from her desk in the corner was an upright piano covered in teddy bears and stuffed animals. Over her door? COMPLAINT department.

I knocked on the door, which was open and I guess I said I didn't have a complaint but that I had some songs I was desperate for people to hear, especially people with AIDS. Leslie Glick. A former dancer with a heart as big as the universe. She led to me volunteering there but I never met any bigwigs.

Now I'm standing on a stage with a presentation from the New York City Council and the head of Broadway Cares/Equity Fights AIDS to the chemist whose drug saved my life not long after that lonely walk down the halls of APLA. 30 years ago next July, we were unwrapping the bandages from my arm.

What now? The critics are calling this a 'miracle' and the 'best of the year.' I call it a foundation.

Do I have a plan? I had a plan walking down the halls to Leslie and her piano.

Same plan as always. Stay alive and live in the bonus round.

#61: Brian Krinsky's Stunning Moment

Here is the full Living in the Bonus Round concert video + Brian Krinsky's big moment.

You have to understand that no one in the cast of Living in the Bonus had heard the show before. Except for their particular moments, nothing was rehearsed. We had no run through. As we all told my story (with script), some cast and musicians were hearing it for the first time and reacted (crying, laughing) just as the audience did.

At this moment in the show, i'm talking about how I was only kept alive because I was surrounded by friends who cared for me. When I went to group therapy session, I realized how unique I was. Many people with AIDS simply died alone, too afraid to come out to their families, too afraid to even tell their own friends. Some seemed to just disappear.

It's the moment when I let my prideful self go and simply gave in to being cared for. I couldn't lift my head up off the pillow. 

So when Brian steps up to the mic to sing "Let Yourself Be Loved," he was barely holding on singing a song he had only just learned. You can see it in his eyes. Luckily, I hired Michael Lee Stevers (who also didn't know what was going to happen) to taped it professionally. So we caught the moment beautifully.

Link to his full performance, barely two minutes long. Watch it: https://youtu.be/7YhgJPFjaAQ

The spontaneity of the night was what made it so precarious and fun. Sue Matsuki, who produced the entire Winter Rhythms Festivel, in reviewing it, said it was an Off-Broadway show ready to go. (She also had no idea what we were going to do.)

Link to full hour-long show: https://youtu.be/8nISTbpm03w

You'll notice when you click through, that I've placed a fundraising tab at the end for Urban Stages. Winter Rhythms was a benefit for their summer schools programs that reach across the entire city into underserved communities. Even if you don't watch the show, go make a contribution anyway. https://www.urbanstages.org/support

This show, barely an idea in my mind four weeks prior, blossomed into something that no one was prepared for, not even me. I hope you enjoy it. Take some time during the holiday season to watch the magic unfold. It's totally free to watch. And have a great new year.
 

Steve (Jim says hi!) 

#60: The Big Night (sent Dec 16)



I have to dream new dreams. Last Tuesday night, when I stood holding onto the man whose molecule saved my life, facing a room of people standing and cheering for him, it was the culmination of a dream I got possessed with only several weeks ago.


He found out from my newsletter about the December 9 Urban Stages show, then wrote me that he and his wife were coming.


I tried to get publicity for it. Since the Urban Stages Winter Rhythms is a fundraiser for their extensive youth theater program outreach, my main goal was to get people to come see the show. I had everything working against me.


First, the time slot. Tuesday night at 9. Can’t get worse than that. My audience doesn’t stay up that late for nobody.


Sue Matsuki, the producer of the event, lets all of us in this 2-week festival know that we have to sell the tickets. She shoos us with emails and reminds us of our numbers. And, two weeks out, my numbers were not good.


I needed to put out a press release. I needed someone! Anyone! To pick up the story and give us just a little mention. But the press needs lead time. And they need context and a story.


Press releases have a specific format. I was looking at tons of hard work, writing these things, finding who to send them to, etc. because I had several audiences. Theater, AIDS, queer history, Internet history, old age, where to start? How to start? With only two weeks to go?


I made an AI program write them all. I made it search up names to send them to. I had it craft emails specifically to all those people, and I blasted these out.


Immediately, City Councilman Erik Bottcher’s office reached out and said they’d have a framed certificate of honor for him from the City. Danny Whitman sent a beautiful acknowledgement from Broadway Cares/Equity Fights AIDS. I tried several others but couldn’t reach the higher-ups. That’s okay.


Then, with that presentation as a hook, we – my AI and I – wrote up press releases and hit every name on my list and any other list I could find. Only two responses. BroadwayWorld.com reprinted our press release, which looked great, by the way. And I sent something to a NY Times person who said he referred it to another department, but it was a nice rejection.


And then I think I blasted this newsletter with the final plea to come see the show.


I’m also rehearsing with the singers a few times. I rehearse with Gavin on guitar. Bill Goffi doesn’t need a rehearsal. He’s like a wind-up toy. He can play anything at any time.


On the day of the show, we find out we’ve almost sold out. The house is going to be full.


So how was the show?


How would I know? I was in it. I can tell you that it seemed to go off without a hitch. And it was kind of cool that the musicians and singers (and I) and the audience were all experiencing it together for the first time since we didn’t have a group rehearsal and had never run the show. No one knew how it would turn out.


But I wrote in my diary that I was BUZZING all night after the show. I lay in bed vibrating. Shoulda charged Jim a quarter a minute.

It felt like a life-expanding event. Like my sense of self and purpose has expanded.


So what’s ahead?


I need to keep on dreaming. I keep having these peak emotional experiences but they weren’t accidents. I engineered them together by writing songs, then an outline, then a script, then hooking Jim into the script, then asking my friends to sing with me and then finding a great cause and putting it all out there, while hearing laughs and tears and applause.


What’s better than that?


I wrote to my brothers that the biggest moment of pride for me, among so many, is that this sheltered Baptist kid from Buna put on a show last Tuesday night that had New York City on its feet.


I think what I do going forward is stay the steady course. Tell my story. Do the laundry, make some meals, feed the cat, change his box, and then spend some time glowing like a Christmas ornament.


Living in the Bonus Round is now a thing with a script. So what happened on that stage was the birth of a new entity. Jim is already in there doing a rewrite.


And yes, it's all captured on tape.

Tuesday, December 02, 2025

#58: The Beatles and Me

Quick note: Had our first vocal rehearsal with Brian Krinsky and
Alicia Irving. The music was SO BEAUTIFUL. Brian's voice will melt you
into a thousand puddles. It's a new song, so I don't want to give it
away by even telling you the title. My only challenge now is how to
make the song longer. They won't let him off the stage.

Alicia and I have known each other for decades. She was in a show
called Club Indigo, which Jim Brochu wrote (and directed?). Anyway,
she is a Broadway performer with an incredibly strong voice. So, we're
singing "Something I Meant To Do," the song Corina and I did last
year. Our affection for each other really shines through.

Blake will be back with "My New York Life" and on the Bonus Round Band songs.

I also rehearsed with Gavin Gold. He's playing acoustic guitar
back-up. Again, really skilled guitarist. The music is going to be so
good.

The biggest problem is that the show is on a Tuesday night at 9pm
because we're part of a theater and cabaret festival called Winter
Rhythms. So, a different act goes on before us at 7. That's why I'm
working extra hard to reward those who do come out.

MORE BEATLES CONNECTIONS
Jim and I watched the Beatles Anthology this past week and I was
struck by the fact that they recorded their entire first album in a
single day. It was a record of every song they knew and had been
playing in clubs. So they just rammed through and finished it.

Back in December of 1995, that's exactly what I was doing. We had no
money. Keeping me alive was taking up every resource and every moment
of our time. Pre-Internet and alone.

The writing of the songs was bringing me back to strength, but nobody
knew anything about the disease and we were all just guessing how much
time I had left. Already, I was way past my "You have a year left" due
date. The music was the only thing keeping me alive.

So I approached a friend with a recording studio and asked if I could
buy one hour of studio time, and, like The Beatles but with a lot less
time, record all the songs I had written for what now was becoming
"The Last Session." The cassette of that session has taken on mythical
proportions because I used to duplicate them, sign them and number
them, and hand them out for free when we performed our first staged
reading at the Hollywood Roosevelt Hotel.

I found one in a box yesterday: #3/100.

Writing this new Living in the Bonus Round show is bringing back so
many of these memories and what we all had to do to survive.

See ya next week!

#57: Dr. Dorsey is Coming!

Howdy! I wanted to share some exciting news about the upcoming Urban Stages show, Living in the Bonus Round: Winter Rhythms 2025.


I recently learned that Dr. Bruce Dorsey—the man who invented the drug that saved my life—will be attending that night with his wife. I have some special surprises planned for him, and I'm very excited for this to be a historic event.


This is an entirely new show with a new format. While I will be singing some of my most requested songs, this show is a more theatrical approach than my past work, and I'm eager for you to see it. As another surprise, Jim Brochu is coming out of retirement to join me onstage

#56: 30 Years Ago It All Started

30 years ago at this time through to the end of the year, I was writing the songs that saved my life: The score of The Last Session.

First came "Connected" in September. Then, in October, "Going It Alone," "Save Me A Seat," and "The Group." Four powerhouse songs that jolted fresh energy into my failing body. At the time, I had lost so much body weight, I was barely a skeleton. By December, I probably had most of the songs written, was able to sit up and go out more, and was begging my friends, the Tobins, for free or nearly free studio time.

(They gave me one hour and we recorded it live to 2-track, me singing one song after the other with no break and no playback. I didn't hear it until we got in the car on the way home.)

This was just before the Internet and the invention of digital home studios. We were also broke because AIDS drained us of any money. We were going to food pantries to get basics. I still remember the Thanksgiving where they gave out frozen turkey tv dinners. It felt like eating at the Four Seasons.

So now I am going to make the show on December 9th a little more comprehensive. Bring in some of the songs from TLS, add in songs from all my various works and then bring us up to date with songs from this past year.

I have a little more stage time than normal, so I'm excited to pack it with stories, hilarity, fun, songs and surprises. I hope you'll join me.


Steve





Tickets to new show on December 9th at Urban Stages!
https://tinyurl.com/urban-steve

Friday, November 07, 2025

#55: Great Women's Night

I took a chance on a stage this past week that had my stomach in my throat.


Last Tuesday, instead of writing this newsletter, I was behind a grand piano at a night club called The Triad, which has been around since forever. My job was to musically assist in a show created by The Three Tomatoes Publishing, a company devoted to new women authors over 40. Most of them were accomplished in other fields and have incredibly vivid, sometimes harrowing stories to tell.


When they approached me a month ago, they said it was an evening at the Triad reading excerpts from books which sounded like the worst idea anyone ever had. What are ya gonna call it? Night Club Library?


Luckily, Cheryl Benton, who has now published over 80 books in the few short years since she started this venture is -- how do I put this? -- a very sharp cookie. She recruited Valerie Smaldone, a DJ, radio personality, and actor, to be one of the readers and help produce the night.


I knew Valerie from back in the Last Session days, maybe? Don't remember but it was great to see her again.


Cheryl also recruited Carol Ostrow, president of the Actor's Temple, who seemingly can do anything. Jane Goldman and others were also involved. I'm just telling this from my point of view.


I was to sing two songs that I co-wrote with the authors. With Carol, I put music to her poem "Ce Soir" and with Jane Goldman, I turned an essay, "Integrity," from her book into a comedy number.


Charlie Viehl was right next to me on the violin. They also asked that we play some music during 5 pre-recorded readings. Which I took very seriously. I actually scored them out as if they were mini 90-second movies.


But then came the moment.


The readings started. On stage was me, Charlie, Kristie Keleshian (an actor), Valerie and Carol. It began with a video, a reading, a welcome from Cheryl, and then more readings. It was right then and there that I realized I had to do something. Maybe it happened after one of the pre-recorded things where we played along.


But suddenly, out of nowhere, as if my hands couldn't be restrained I began playing underscoring for the live readings. It was scary because no one told me to do this. We had a house full of people and this was being recorded for an archive/promotional use. So I was literally changing the texture of the night.


The result?


I'll tell you what they told me. It worked brilliantly. I tried to stay really subtle and out of the way of the actors but adding that little bit of music made it theatrical. And the actors were fantastic, too, so we kind of fed off each other.


Afterward, everyone was swarming the small stage area, the audience went nuts for it.


I guess my point is that sometimes it's better to step out on faith, as we used to say, and trust your instincts. My goal was to be of service to this group and to these women. And when you're in that mindset, of being as part of what makes a greater whole, it becomes a life lesson.





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New Show on December 9th at Urban Stages! Tickets: https://tinyurl.com/urban-steve

Monday, November 03, 2025

#54: Shoulder Report



Back in the summer, when I fell on a slick subway grate, landing on my wrist, the xrays indicated trouble with my shoulder implant. I tried to get an appointment - using my lousy insurance - to see someone and they scheduled me for this month. Finally, a week before my appointment, that office called me to say they didn't do shoulders.


So frustrated! I waited months for this appointment.


Desperately, I looked up the surgeon who did the original surgery and found that he suddenly is taking my insurance. And better yet, he could see me in a week. Well, I saw him on Monday and the result is that my implant is fine. The issue was that the xray looks confusing to an outsider because, as many of you know, I previously had a bad implant and this doctor, Dr. Cagle, is the one who pulled the old one out and put in the new one. This was in 2019.


What the others were seeing was the "leftover" bone growth from the bad implant. Nothing to worry about. It just looks weird. He saw no loosening of the implant. I can go back to normal activities.


My wrist and hand still hurt from the fall, but that's just something I have to live with.


So thank you for all your comments and love.


Thank you also for sending me all the wonderful stories about Doug Leland, whose death I mentioned last week. He was greatly loved and some had not heard he had passed so they thanked me for letting them know.


I've been so busy this past week with rehearsals and playing Beatles songs. But I caught one of my favorite moments last week when a group of young people came through the 103 street station where we play on Fridays. We turned the whole subway station into a pop-up Beatles singalong. It was GREAT!


Here is the video of the moment. I grabbed my phone just in time.


https://youtu.be/7saTyECMHXU?si=5XqSZpnIwZecbnHn

Thursday, October 16, 2025

#53: RIP Doug Leland

I just learned Doug Leland, a neighbor, died. He had been suffering from cancer. I got involved with him purely by chance a couple of years ago when, on Facebook, I saw a note from him saying he needed some help with someone bringing him coffee and a morning breakfast sandwich because he was trapped at home due to swelling in his legs.
(His usual set of close friends who took care of him, were all, by coincidence this one week, out of town or unavailable.)

For some reason that day, I woke up with the resolution that if I see an “I need help” note on Facebook from one of my friends that I would say yes. I sent him a note. He lives in our complex at the other end of the block.

He asked it I'd go to Dunkin Donuts, only a half block farther on 10th Avenue. He had it all called in and ready to go. When I brought it to him, he tried to give me money but I refused. I explained that this is part of my morning walk and it’s no bother to bring it.

This became a little routine. His cat liked me. We would sit and visit. One day he said, “I auditioned for The Big Voice and you turned me down.”

I said, “I didn’t remember that!” (Back when we replaced ourselves Off-Broadway). That made me feel a little bad.

At this time I was really getting into cooking, so I would bring him soup and other items that I had made for Jim and myself. Wash his dishes, take out garbage.

One morning he said he was in a hospital room over on the far east side and he NEEDED his particular coffee.

I said no problem, and I went to the Dunkin’ Donuts, rode the M42 bus to wherever he was and delivered it. He kept trying to give me money. Then he asked me why I was doing this, since we didn't really know each other except for nods around the neighborhood (he was the tenant organization president for awhile).

I told him that it's more of a blessing for me to be of service. I believe human beings lose their sense of identity when they're not actively being of service. How wonderful the swell in our chests when we actually do something that really helps someone else, even if it's something small, like helping pick up someone's spilled grocery bag or, as I found myself later, sitting in a moving van while my friend moved himself into a new apartment -- that was another "Help Me" I responded to that week.

I learned, when I was flat on my back in the hospital trying to hold on to as much self-control as I could, how selfish I was being by trying to keep people from helping me. Until I finally couldn't lift my head up off the pillow. I finally just said, "I surrender. I can no longer care for myself."

After at time, I didn’t hear from him for a while. He declined help when I sent him notes. I saw him on Facebook a lot and I guess his friends took over for doing what I was doing. But sadly, he was in decline.

And now I see that he has passed away.

It was interesting entering his little one room world of glitter, show posters, veils, a desk and tons of silvery souvenirs from lives past. A Show Family lives as one for a brief while and then everyone transforms from lovers to distant cousins at the snap of a closing night notice. And what remains is a feather here, a key chain there. And memories. So many glorious memories.

[I told my friend and acting teacher, Andy Gale, this story and he said Doug Leland used to man the table in the Actor's Equity lounge, directing traffic. He said Doug was the kindest person he'd ever seen doing that. He made everyone feel comfortable and welcome.]

Doug, I'm glad we got to spend a little time together. I'm sorry if you suffered in your final days. You lived an active life as an actor and activist. And you made that little world better for it.


And that brings us our link of the week, which is a rare video of Stephen Bienskie singing "Going It Alone" Off-Broadway. His performance was one of the greatest acting performances I've ever witnessed especially him with Bob Stillman singing this together at the end. Amazing.

https://youtu.be/7qTe-UHPSPM?si=UfNeeH-w3I6d6Ewe

Monday, October 13, 2025

#52: Best Birthday Ever & Tooth Pulled

My birthday last Saturday was the best day of my life. First, I did the laundry, then we saw a Broadway show, “Death Becomes Her,” then a quick visit with old friends at the Greek restaurant downstairs, where I scarfed down all their crudo, then the C train to Strawberry Fields. Because we were starting at 6, I knew there was not much time left in the day.

But I declared it “Beatles Birthday Bash” celebrating my 72nd birthday, and I went full throttle on roping the people in, getting them to sing along, making jokes. I’m beginning to realize that I’m basically doing an impromptu stand-up act between songs. And that the more I do it, the better I get.


But it’s the part at the end, when we join together in a circle to sing “Imagine” that it turns really serious. It occurred to me that I’m not doing this in my backyard. This is sacred ground to people who feel very deep feelings about John and his death.


So, after all the jokes and the songs and the singalongs and the dancing and the kids, dogs and babies, I have the awesome privilege of conducting a mini-memorial service that not only mourns the death of a beloved figure but uses that moment to encourage them to live out the dream. To watch it happen in front of their eyes as they join in song with “the world.”


One woman approached me afterward, tears in her eyes, “I guess I needed that more than I realized.” We hugged a long hug. Her husband was beaming, eyes also glistening. Another lady said she had heard us before and dragged her husband along. He was also smiling. I remember seeing him sing along a lot.


And that was my birthday. I never in a million years dreamed that my life would take this course, intersecting John Lennon, especially. First, playing his Imagine piano for Bill Clayton and now this.


That for those people who visit the park, Gavin and I have become a part of The Beatles story. It's an awesome and beautiful burden to bear.


TOOTH STORY

Had my tooth pulled. One of my molars. It was killing me last July so I tried to get an appointment, but the only dental clinic that would take my insurance was one up in Harlem three months later. Easy to get there. 2 train express up to 125th street, then walk a block to 124th.


The office was bright and clean. I and another guy were the first patients and were early so I sat in the waiting room playing a Tetris-like video game, listening to a book about someone collecting miniature Japanese statues in France in the 19th century. I can’t tell if it’s a memoir or a novel. But it does name drop Proust a lot.


When the office opened, we were told to go to the 9th floor. Then we were told there would be a delay because “the interns went to the wrong clinic.” An elderly doctor with a vague East European accent and warm smile did apologize and reassure us it was all fine. The technician took x-rays. Always feels so odd, biting down on that plastic stick that holds the film in place.


More waiting and then escorted into a dental chair which was facing away from the door onto a room-wide floor-to-ceiling window with the whole of Manhattan before me, looking South. The tallest buildings were the pencil skyscrapers now lining Central Park South. Couldn’t see the park, though. Not high enough.


Soon, a younger woman entered, introduced herself as the doctor. I didn’t see her since I was facing away but when she showed her face, she was the image of warmth and confidence. I told that my tooth was very loose and it doesn’t hurt anymore but it makes eating uncomfortable. She took a quick look.


(Before, when I needed a tooth extracted, the dental clinic had to send me to a dental surgery center, which meant more months of waiting.) I asked if she could pull it herself.


The older doctor asked if she could do, if it was loose enough.


She didn’t even hesitate. No problem. Of course, that meant I had to prepare myself for the dreaded novocain shots. I took a deep breath as the needle went in and escorted my brain out of the room, though I did jump once in pain.


After a moment, she tested the numbing, then reached in, I felt some uncomfortable tugging, but it was over in a flash. Not even a minute long procedure. And also, the numbing was extremely localized, so I didn’t have a frozen face or a numb tongue as usual afterward. That made me very happy.


Ah, but old age. And apparently, this bone loss is due to the side effects of one or more of my AIDS meds. The same issue I’m having with my right arm. I’ll be seeing that doctor soon, too, to decide if there is anything we can do about the implant.


UPCOMING:
October 28: I'll be singing some songs and accompanying others at a terrific literary event here in NYC called "The Power of Women's Voices" at the Triad Theatre. I'll be singing two of the songs I composed based on essays/lyrics by women in this group. Link here: https://www.thethreetomatoes.com/power.


December 9th, Tuesday at 9pm: Steve Schalchlin and Friends at Urban Stages with Blake Zolfo, our old pal Bill Goffi and new pal Brian Krinsky, plus the Rebel Nerds! It's gonna be great.





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#51: You Don't Want To See That

This past Saturday night, I did something brand new for me: Side man musician in a band playing the Latin-influenced music of a Billboard All-Time Top 27 dance pop star from The Bronx named Corina.


And I had a slight costume failure.


It was a great experience because I met three new musicians, one of whom is an outstanding artist/performer on his own, Edwin Vasquez +E. He has a featured song in a new indie movie called Brownsville Bred, which is playing in a limited run here on 42nd Street. And his friend, Ben, a violinist who plays with him and his band.


Corina proudly announced several weeks ago that she had found some costumes for us to wear. They were double-breasted, black. Kind of looked like the Monkees or a chauffeur. Fine. I'll wear a costume. But when I put it on just before the show, I realized it was midriff cut. Not cut way high, but definitely...


My belly was kinda hanging out there and it, unnaturally distended by AIDS meds, is not pretty. I try to stay as trim as I can but it is what it is.


The shirt, however, was just long enough that if I pulled my black jeans up high enough and snuck up the aisles fast enough when the lights were off, no one would see anything. I'd be sitting almost in the corner, mostly hidden. And Corina is so beautiful, all eyes would be directed to her. The other guys did not wear the outfit. Bastards.


The love that came across in the room at Don't Tell Mama was rare and beautiful. At times, they were singing along with her. She revealed that, like me, she had endured a health crisis which she hid from the public because of Covid. It was a life or death situation, and somehow, perhaps sheer personal stubbornness, but also because of Jaochin, who stood by her just like Jim stood by me when I was on my "deathbed," survived.


Perhaps this is the connection that the two of us share, why she would want me in her band. At one point, out of the blue during the show, they said, "Steve! Take the solo!"


SOLO?? I'm barely hanging on here! Play a solo?? With my damaged right arm. But in the moment, what can you do? I played a solo. Kept it very spare. Fools them every time. Makes them think you have taste!


Afterwards, a light misty rain began to fall, giving the many lighted up places here on Restaurant Row a dreamy haze. I walked quickly home without a big goodbye. She was surrounded by fans and friends. I had a Jim and a cat to come home to, and the memory of an impossible-to-imagine night of music.


I love New York.


THANKS
To you who wrote telling me how much you love people's reactions to The Beatles songs, especially the part about not participating in the war mindset the media and politicians are trying to keep active. Non-violent resistance is a difficult and specific way of life. I can mention more if you wish, but once you make that commitment, there's no turning back. :)


Also thanks to those of you asking about Jim. He recovered from his mystery fatigue disease but it keeps popping up every once in a while and he takes a day to recover. So he's still a little weak but he's eating well and is as obnoxious as ever.

Friday, September 26, 2025

#50: Safe Harbor & New Song



This past week, after together singing "Yesterday" by one Paul McCartney, a man looked over at me and said, "This has been a lifelong dream."


He was from Ghana and his little girl was in his lap as he sang, bright-eyes filled with wonder. What we must have looked like to her, two guys in bright satin pink and green coats with shiny gold buttons and dangling epaulets. We even picked up a couple of portable lights so we looked even brighter in the encroaching darkness of dusk in Central Park.


Then, last Friday, as Gavin Gold and I conducted our usual busy subway "Beatles Friday at Station 103," a well dressed, elegant woman asked if we knew "Yesterday." As we began to play and sing it, she went into a little trance and then tears began to stream down her eyes. Who knows where she went, who she was with or what year it was?


Again, at the park, after we sang "Imagine" all circled around the Imagine mosaic, a man with a wife and two kids, thanked me for saying how, when we're connected together even for just five minutes, we realize that we can fulfill the promise of a world with no war, no hunger, no labels, by just being humans standing together singing.


When I trained with the MLK Foundation during our March on Lynchburg, I learned that to participate in the war is to extend and exacerbate the war. I realize how I'm bringing that training to bear on one of the most iconic landmarks in the world.


If not there, where?


I began to appreciate all this when I took this past August off to be with family down in Texas. My family has members of all stripes from deep red MAGA to wild-eyed lefties (and back again).


When I got back in September, the one thing I wanted to get back to was singing The Beatles songs. I wrote about one day where I literally had to sing for 7 1/2 hours. It was the greatest day of my life.


And now I realize why. Because I (with Gavin) are living out a dream of non-violent resistance. What are we resisting? We are resisting being recruited into the culture war. Refusing to participate in war is the first step to ending war. And it starts right in your heart.


In these past few weeks, we have been seeing more and more the results of the violent mindset being created, for profit, by the media who knows that anger sells. And then they look us right in the eye and ask us what could possibly be the cause of it all.


I haven't written a song in two months. I can't. I'm frozen thinking maybe sometimes it's better to shut up.


Jim asked me why I didn't send a newsletter last week. (Did you miss me?)


I said, "Because I don't have anything to say."


I guess this week I do have something to say because I just said it.


All we are saying is give peace a chance
All you need is love


Sounds old fashioned, those words. But connected to the music, with a park full of people singing along?


In the end, the love you take
Is equal to the love you make


STEVE IN PERSON:
This next Saturday, I'll be playing piano for the brilliant force of nature that is Corina. We'll be doing an acoustic version of her latest, incredibly powerful album "Spanglish."
https://shows.donttellmamanyc.com/9153-corina-spanglish-unplugged-new-york-city-9-27-25


October 28: I'll be singing a couple songs at a terrific event here in NYC on October 28 called "The Power of Women's Voices" at the Triad Theatre, sponsored by The Three Tomatoes Book Publishing. Link here: https://www.thethreetomatoes.com/power.





December 9th: Urban Stages with Blake Zolfo, our old pal Bill Goffi and new pal Brian Kritsky, plus the Rebel Nerds! It's gonna be great.




NEW SONG: 43rd Street Fair featuring footage I shot on September 13.




https://youtu.be/CaFYX9znLZw

Thursday, September 11, 2025

#49: They'll Come Looking For You



Quick note: I'm honored to be a singer/accompanist at a terrific event here in NYC on October 28 called "The Power of Women's Voices" at the Triad Theatre, sponsored by The Three Tomatoes Book Publishing. I'll talk more about it as the date gets closer. Link here: https://www.thethreetomatoes.com/power. But Cheryl Benton has a knack of finding lost or ignored female voices and bringing them to life.


Note 2: I'm also performing as a back-up musician for the great pop star, Corina. We'll be doing an acoustic version of her latest, incredibly powerful album "Spanglish."
https://shows.donttellmamanyc.com/9153-corina-spanglish-unplugged-new-york-city-9-27-25


Now, to today's song and video. I got so excited about the response to the last video I right away jumped on another "lost" song I've loved but never quite figured out how to record, "They'll Come Looking For Us" in honor of a friend of mine, Billy Block, a promoter of Americana music and open mics in Nashville, who had just died. So it's dedicated to him.


It's a message of hope for any kind of creator (like the wonderful women authors at the Three Tomatoes Publishing). That if you stay on your path and stay true to your vision and work on it, preferably with a creative community around you, and if that vision has any kind of real meaning, people will find you. They will come to you.

For some reason -- maybe it was the way I was raised -- I have always lived with great positivity. The belief that no matter how bad things get, we can and will get over it and defeat it.

Or rather, that people inherently, once they realize they've been hornswoggled, will go looking for Truth. We humans can be conned and fooled and led astray easily, but when Truth hits us, when we hear it, we recognize it. It's something beyond and above the normal stream of culture.

When we performed The Last Session, or even earlier when I sang those songs on my own, I saw people's heads practically spin off their shoulders once they heard Truth in my lyrics and felt if in my music. I watched it every night. I could see their bodies change shape as they became totally frozen in the moment.


So here is the video. I spent about four days imagining and then using AI tools to create the musical setting and the animation. If you are a creator, yourself, I hope this song gives you inspiration to fight on and make your mark!


https://youtu.be/27d9jc7Wl2Y


THEY'LL COME LOOKING FOR US
©2025 by Steve Schalchlin

BILLY BLOCK RAN THIS OPEN MIC
HE’D SAY, SON, YOU’RE DOING IT WRONG
DON’T BEG AND PLEAD FOR ATTENTION
IT’S DEMEANING AND IT RUINS YOUR SONG

THERE’LL COME A TIME THE PARTY’LL CRASH
GAMES AND FUN WILL BE IN THE PAST
FOLKS WILL WANT SOME SUBSTANCE
SOME GUTS AND TRUTH THAT WILL LAST

THEY’LL COME LOOKING FOR US
THEY’LL COME LOOKING FOR US
THEY IGNORE US NOW
AS WE HUDDLE TOGETHER
STORYTELLER AND TROUBADOUR
BUT THEY’LL COME LOOKING FOR US

THEY'LL COME LOOKING FOR US
CUZ FAKE IS FUN FOR A SEASON
THEN IT GETS OLD AND WE ALL WANT MORE

I SAID YOU’RE JUST A PROMOTER
SELLING A ROMANTIC DREAM
THE TRUTH IS THE WORLD DON’T CARE
AND WILL SPIN ON WHETHER WE’RE HERE OR THERE

HE SAID MAKE LOVE AND SURVIVE
FROM YOUR HALF EMPTY SHELVES
CUZ WHEN THEY’RE ALONE WITH THEIR
HALF-EMPTY SELVES

THEY’LL COME LOOKING FOR US
THEY’LL COME LOOKING FOR US
THEY MAY NOT KNOW OUR NAMES YET
SO MUCH NOISE THEY MUST CUT THROUGH

BUT THEY’LL COME LOOKING FOR US
THEY’LL COME LOOKING FOR US
THEY MAY KILL US, THEY MAY EAT US
THEY MAY STICK US UP ON STATUES
CUZ THAT’S WHAT PEOPLE DO
TO THE ONES WHO SAY WHAT’S TRUE

THEY’LL COME LOOKING FOR YOU
THEY’LL COME LOOKING FOR YOU
HE SAID TURN YOUR BACK
MAKE ‘EM LOOK OVER YOUR SHOULDER

THEY’LL COME LOOKING FOR YOU

#48: Doctor Follow-Up & Inspiration for Creators



Jim is back to totally normal.


The doctor told Jim that his partner had a similar occurrence, several days of chills, no fever, no appetite, sleeping all day also just recently. And like Jim, bounced right back with no lingering effects. He also speculates a mild kind of new little virus or "bug" popping up. (He googled the symptoms and then proudly announced he had malaria. Thank you, AI. He did not have malaria.)


I also forgot to mention that the video for "If You Don't See God" last week was created by me. I thought it should look like a homemade project made of felt, something a kid might bring to school or church.


In case you missed it: https://youtu.be/J1kfRAs1rRs?si=zoB1Qq7z40rRrn4a


I'm excited by September. I'm working with the pop star Corina again, assisting her on her own show at the end of the month.


My arm is healing slowly. It's a bit harder to walk for long periods of time, as I love to do.


So, I'll finish this off with a promo video I just made for Gavin and me.


https://youtu.be/K1OKR0igFnM


(And today is my late mom's birthday. Love you, Carolyn.)

#47: An ER Visit & Universal Gospel Song



1. ER
Close friends know that Jim was in the ER this weekend. He had a very bad weekend where he was almost catatonic, sleeping 23 out of 24 hours. It was so weird and inexplicable, when he finally agreed to go to the ER on Sunday morning, we were relieved that there was no one in the waiting room and we went right in.


They tested everything but nothing came up positive. On Monday, I was really in a panic because it seemed like they had no diagnosis and he looked worse.


Then suddenly, he came out of it and was absolutely normal. We will be seeing his primary doctor today to see if there is any explanation. Thanks to everyone who wrote and expressed sympathy.


2. If You Don't See God.
With AI music proliferating, a single person can "create" and upload hundreds of phony mediocre "songs" based on nothing but a "prompt," thus denying actual songwriters royalties by flooding the market with this crap.


THAT BEING SAID, if someone told me when I was a kid that a song I wrote (YES, THAT I WROTE WITHOUT AI), could come to life almost immediately, I know I would have jumped on it. Now, others may disagree and that's fine.


So what I've done is I've taken a gospel song I wrote some time ago but always wanted to hear in its full glory. But what it needs is a killer soul vocalist, a huge choir and instrumentation. I couldn't afford this kind of production even if I did have the right singers and musicians.


I said above, in the title, that this was a "universal gospel song" and it came from my desire to write songs that could universally apply across any and all faith traditions based on my belief that, in all ethical religions, there is a lodestone of truth-love that runs beneath them all.


Since the rules of the use of AI in streaming is still being worked out legally, I'm only releasing this on YouTube because, frankly, I want everyone SINGING this song.


Long ago, when I left my home church due to their rejection of gay people, it was 25 years before I ever darkened the door of a church again. I'm still not back in or out. As I wrote in another song, "I stand outside," not because I think I'm better but because that's where I am. Period. Pushed out and now outside. And that's fine with me because I have found that I'm welcome in any congregation with an open mind. Whether that's Christian or Jewish or Unitarian or any other other sacred space, it doesn't matter because Truth is Truth and Love is Love.

So, here is the song! I hope it is meaningful to you.


https://youtu.be/J1kfRAs1rRs?si=bqs44AXz-QADY6fO


IF YOU DON'T SEE GOD

If you don’t see God
In the eyes of the people
Then you don’t see God

Search in the stars
Check all the nooks
Know every word
Found in your books
Sort through creation
Sift all the clues
Pay all the dues, but…

If you don’t see God
In the eyes of the people
Then you don’t see God

Pray every prayer
Follow each rule
Learn every lesson
Taught in your school
Wear the right clothing
Walk the right way
Know what to say, but…

If you don’t see God
In the eyes of the people
Then you don’t see God
If you don’t see God
In the eyes of the people
Then you don’t see God
Then you don’t see God
Then you don’t see God

©2004 by Steve Schalchlin / Lil Shack O Tunes ASCAP